I wake up. Sweating. Heart pounding. A visualization in my head that was impossible to shake. A scenario that sickens me. What if it really would happen? Could it happen right this very moment? I had to get up, get up and sit in the safety of my trusty recliner. I looked out the window toward the street. Was there anybody out there? It was pitch dark – not a streetlight in sight. Where are my kids? They are home; they are safe and sound. Why can’t I get rid, rid of this disturbing thought that’s engulfing me? I turn to look out the window facing my yard. It’s a familiar view. A peaceful view. A calming view. Was I seeing things? I look again trying to focus my eyes. Seven deer are milling around without a care in the world. No danger. No fear. I stare at the silent beauty for a long time. I fall asleep.